I feel like I've known these words my whole life. In fact, I think my mother may have muttered them a lot. Moms need a lot of grace.
They're beautiful words. Poetic.
Yesterday, as I laid on a hospital bed for hours, these words ran insistently through my heart, on repeat. I was hungry for understanding. Needed that strength.
Weakness. It's not something I like. It might even be something I despise in myself. Okay, it is.
Energy! Competence! Efficiency! Helpful! Those are my kind of words.
And I am all too aware of their absence in my life. Recent weakness has been devoid of any loveliness, much less perfection. It's humbling me. It's costing others.
Seeking and hungering for more, I found what I needed. Not in the morphine (though it was really lovely), but in the Greek dictionary on my smart phone. The deeper layers of meaning in the beautiful words.
These words that were from the heart of God to Paul regarding physical weakness:
...the merciful kindness by which God keeps, strengthens, increases faith, knowledge and affection...
...is sufficient for thee.
...to be strong, to be enough, to defend and ward off, as though raising a barrier.
For my strength...
...the inherent power of God which resides in him by virtue of his nature, a miraculous power...
...is made perfect...
...to carry though completely, to add what is yet wanting in order to render a thing full...
...want of strength of the body (feebleness of health or sickness)
or of the soul (want of strength and required capacity).
In other words,
"Michelle (add your name),
I--your Heavenly Papa--
gladly extend my merciful kindness to strengthen your faith
and your knowledge of My affection for you.
All that is in my nature I extend to you
to carry you through completely.
All that is in Me I extend to you
to fill up what is lacking
in the strength of your body
and the capacity of your soul."
It really is enough.
It's for you too...whether its health in your body, mind, relationships...wherever the need. He will add to what is yet wanting in order to render a thing full.
It's not you. It's Him. He will carry you through completely and make up all that you lack.
2 Corinthians 12:9